Peace (nursing nest part II)

It is Friday, and my experiment with changing my thought process and spending time in my "nest" has worked very well so far. I find that since I have started allowing my little girl to nap on my lap I have found that I am forced to relax, I have time to enjoy the book I'm reading (which, by the way is by Norma Jean Bumgarner not Bumgarter) and I actually slept at least once. The house has not fallen apart, and is, in fact, in pretty good shape! I save those sorts of tasks for later in the day, when I have time to myself and can get things done rapidement. Hubby is also sharing the cooking with me, which is more of a break than I realized it would be. Anyhow, I really feel less stressed/angry/frustrated/pissy than I did earlier in the week, and I think my changes have everything to do with it. I am allowing myself to have fun with my little girl, and that can only be good for both of us. I have always had fun with her, but now I don't feel bad about not getting other things done. I am also asking for hubby's help a little bit more, and little things make a big difference in my mental heath. For example, I asked him to bring the laundry downstairs two nights ago. It seems like a little thing, but it is very difficult for me to carry baby and laundry down the stairs, and instead of feeling frustrated while waiting for the opportunity to go get it sans baby, I asked for assistance. Instant decrease in blood pressure and increase in positive attitute. The hardest part of any change of plan or behavior is sticking to the new way of doing things. I shall try, oh yes, I shall try. But letting go of things has been easier than I realized. It's ok to say that I just can't get to something - no one questions how time consuming childcare is. And I'm ok with not getting to things as long as I don't plan to get to something only to find I can't. If I don't plan to get to it in the first place, I don't have the disappointment later. Simple as that. As a matter of fact, it makes anything that does get accomplished in addition to routine childcare a big fat bonus. And that puts a completely new spin on the whole thing. Today, I mailed a package! WhooHoo! I also, get this, bought stamps! Yowza. And I bought a Christmas gift for someone. And I got some frames for the walls. And I made a loaf of bread. And I blogged. :)