Rethink

Do you ever get sick of your own beliefs? I mean, do you ever drive yourself nuts just trying to follow your own ideas of who you are? I drive myself bananas sometimes. I find myself spending more water, time and mental effort trying to get the last dang bit of food off of a sticky, recyclable can just to do "the right thing" by getting it to the recycle bin. Throwing one out of 100 recyclable cans in the trash is NOT going to make a difference!! Earlier today my hubby said to me, "You need to give yourself a break!" "Crack!" I replied. He's right. I try so hard to do right by myself that I drive myself to distraction. The other day, I asked hubby to cut my hair. Other than loving that it felt so healthy and easy, I didn't give it much thought. Since then, two virtual strangers have commented that I "chopped my hair" - and when it wasn't followed by some kind of kind comment, I flew into a mental internal melt-down about how it must, therefore, look awful, and spun into a verbal tirade to hubby about how no one pays any attention to me unless I'm dying or do something drastic to my appearance that they don't approve of. A bit over the top? Uh...YEAH! Why do I do this to myself?? I really find that if I don't have something to worry about, I don't know what to think about. It's ridiculous. In October, I start worrying about Christmas shopping. Now, am I worrying? Or do I need something to ponder? If I need something to think about, should I find something more healthy to occupy my thoughts? Should I worry about this? Aghhhhhhhhhhhhh........... Stopstopstop!!